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Friday, December 31, 2010

Making Tracks

How I would love to be making tracks of my own in the snow. The wildlife surrounds us and makes me want to follow and see where they go.
Deer tracks, turkey, like the ones on my wool blanket, rabbits everywhere, mouse tracks, bobcat, wolf. ( No, I don't want to follow that one.)
However, many years ago, I took a terrible tumble down these treacherous half log stairs, not properly spaced, and knocking me out cold. That was the beginning of bad news for my back and legs . It's been 12 yrs. but seems like yesterday. Four years later, one leg fell straight down through a rotted deck board, while the other did the splits. To make a long story short, my leg went completely numb, loosing use of it, in less than a weeks time. Needless, to say, back surgery was the only way out of this dilemma. Am I still bothered today,? Yes. The first year, neuroprathy settled in making for an unhappy camper lately.
Why lately? Well, I used to do a lot of snowshoeing., even after the surgery, but now, since I cannot feel my feet half the time, and they are constantly ice cold, I don't go anymore. I guess I'm a bit bitter over it all. Oh, I can still walk, or stumble about. My Dad had a dead leg, and swore he would walk again. He did too. I noticed how he trained himself to mentally move his legs one foot in front of the other. My situation is much different than his was, but the fact that there is still tons of frustration over something I cannot change, remains an issue. I am getting slower, much more careful and guarded of each step, especially with winter snow and ice. I feel robbed. and Shame on me.
I can still move, but there is always that ' but.'
I'm ashamed of myself, all this self pity. All I have wanted to do today, was to strap on those snowshoes up there and take a winters walk., making my own tracks, my own mark in the woods. Don't worry about me, I beat myself up like this once in awhile to be reminded of all the glory God has given me.

Oh, I'll get over it!

For now, I want to thank all my blog friends for following my tracks here. You have been supportive, complimentary of my artful attempts and grandloving, and genuinely ' good for me. ' You have been true friends. I would like to wish each and every one of you a blessed new year with 365 Happy Dance Days in 2011!

BlessYourHearts, Everyone

12 comments:

jack69 said...

Love you girl. With us haveing the pleasure of seeing yoyur cabin and climbing the stairs, they are beautiful, I love them but to take a falldown them is terrible.

We with cold feet that don't know it are weird folk, but cute and sweet. I have never been able to feel my feet, or for as long as I can remember. I thought everyone was like that. hahahaha!!

Yes dear, we love to follow your tracks, God can handle all your griping (what little we hear) He knows down deep you are a pretty good egg. YOu are one tough cookie and that is good.

Love from down in Florida and today I don't even want to follow one of the rabbits. hahahaha

Take care and you and Bill have a Happy New Year!!!!

Betsy from Tennessee said...

Oh Dar, I had no idea you had had so many problems with your legs through the years. Mercy me ---I would never be able to go up and down those stairs either...

Please be careful and take care of yourself. I hope that 2011 is a GREAT year for you healthwise.

Happy New Year.
Hugs,
Betsy

Fred Alton said...

Happy New Year! I loved your blog about making tracks and could imagine myself checking those tracks out - until I came to the wolf - then I decided to go back to the campfire! ☺ I sympathize with you about the walking. I admire your tenacity to be a "Happy Dancer" and love the way you use the "Bless your heart" phrase. You are a very special person who gives much joy to others through your artistic skills and by sharing your loving family stories with us. God Bless you and give you your best ever year for 2011.

Lucy said...

I love visiting your blog. That is bad when something like that happens when you are so active. At 81 I am not the steadiest on my feet but like you I just keep on going. Keep on making this beautiful blog. I love it. My feet are always cold.

Dar said...

Jack, Sherry, Betsy, Fred, Lucy:
I woke to read your heartfelt comments and realize yet again, what a great support system my sisters have sent me to...so thanks Mel and Cher to you also for being a part of my life. I love every one of you.
Happy Dance, Happy Day, Happy New Year
BlessYourHearts

Cher' Shots said...

Dar,
Our family has had it's share of back issues which eventually seem to cause leg and foot concerns. But being who we are and where we come from we always seem to keep on "tracking" through whatever comes our way!
Happy New Year Sis!
'love and hugs from afar'

Sandi @the WhistleStop Cafe said...

I've got my peas and greens on~ looking forward to a little luck and a few greenbacks in the new year!
I am wishing you the same... and a few days of dancing too :-)

madcobug said...

WOW! you have really taken the tumbles. My back is a mess and I haven't done all that. I love all those tracks. Can't help but wonder which animal could be following the other one. Happy New Year, may you have a blessed one. Helen

imac said...

I do hope 2011 will bring you happiness my friend.

Kathy said...

Sorry to hear about your fall and what it has left you...not fun at all.
Wishing you the best in the new year to come,
Kathy @
Sweet Up-North Mornings...

GardenofDaisies said...

Those are amazing tracks in the snow!!
I'm so sorry you have had trouble with your legs/feet since your fall, and haven't been able to go snowshoeing. I wish there was more your doctor could do for you. Sending you hugs. And all good wishes for a happy new year!!

Paula said...

It is so disappointing when you can't do the things you once did. You do have a good attitude and that accounts for so much. I'm so glad I met you this year and hope to know you for many more.